Summer is rolling in

Just stopping by for a quick hello.

I have not felt much like blogging lately. Not that I've blogged much so far. I just keep starting a post and then delete it and let a few more days pass.

Invitations went out after my last update. Responses are trickling in. It is so disheartening to eagerly go to the mailbox day after day and not find any RSVP cards waiting for me.  I dread making phone calls (always feel like I'm bothering the person) so I hope people follow through!!! It is fun to hilight people off my list as they come in. Thank you, early repliers :)

This weekend we are going camping. The whole fam damily. I used to love camping with my family when I was younger. We have not gone in years. I just don't feel like spending time with my family now. Isn't that TERRIBLE?! I just can't handle them right now. I don't feel very loved or respected by my parents. I feel like I need to pull away and just do me for a while. That is fine. It just feels bad. I know I should soak it in but all I really want to do is be alone lately. Meh. Fingers crossed it goes better than I expect.

We are set to close on the house next Friday. Did you see that? NEXT. FRIDAY!!!!!!!!! I am so unmotivated to pack. Today I just kept scrolling through photos of the house and daydreaming about "my counter tops" and "my ugly light fixture to replace" and "my bajillion bisque outlet covers" that I can't wait to replace. I mentally paint rooms and tear out carpet. I mentally unpack my pretty dishes and load them into "my dishwasher" and drink fresh brewed iced tea. I made it with hot water from the kettle on "my stove." Hell, I even checked Craig's List for a white gas stove today, because I don't like electric. Not that a new-to-us stove is high on the priority list right now, but since I was daydreaming anyway....
We bought paint last week. Buddy isn't made of money so we had to start small. We got paint for the kitchen (walls and cabinets) and dining room. I have an idea for the kitchen colors but no direction for the rest of the house. We did not get the paint tinted yet so this Libra girl still has plenty of freedom to flip flop her visions!

Next Sunday is the wedding shower. I am excited but shy. I am not very comfortable being the center of attention. Also, I LOATHE opening gifts in front of people. It freaks me out! I am not ungrateful at all, and I adore watching people open gifts from me. I just feel so awkward. And I don't know how fast to open. Too slow, too fast.

Oh! I had my first dress fitting on Sunday. Still fits. We made great progress with the construction of the top. My tattoos are diffused, which is exactly what I wanted. I don't want to cover my tattoos with makeup or something and try to pretend they aren't there. I also don't want the bluebird on my shoulder and the black and gray wings on my back to be the first thing I see in every wedding photo. The alterations will perfectly cover the ink while remaining sheer and lovely. I felt covered and secure without feeling like I was being swallowed up in fabric. I will see the the real deal at the next fitting. I'm very happy. It should also be hemmed and have the bustle done. Once the straps are attached I'll be good to go!! 

I can't wait. Best summer of my life is officially under way :)